Today was my last PT appointment until after my surgery. I have to be honest, I am PT'd out! I've been going since December and am just having surgery now and I will be in PT for a good number of months afterwards, so it was hard to get motivated to go. Everyone is perfectly lovely and helpful there, but my mental side has had enough. This is not a good state to be in, and I know I have to snap out of it. I guess I have 18 days to do so.
So I went in a bad frame of mind, and with many nervous and stressed out thoughts. I have been reading many different things about the results of the surgery and it has all made me a bit apprehensive. Yes, I know I have to have the surgery, but at the same time my brain is trying to come up with ideas about how to avoid it. My hip did hold up fairly well this week, and I hadn't been limping much until after PT today so does that mean I should skip the surgery? Granted I still can't walk a lot without it acting up and I really would like to be able to exercise properly again and go for nice long hikes so that means I should do the surgery. This is the circle my mind keeps going around and around in and it's driving me completely mad!
I expressed my concerns to my pt's K and S, and S said, "well the surgery is not 100%". That didn't really help to be honest though when I was leaving he said to feel free to ring him before if I had any more questions or concerns. I did make sure my post op PT appointment is scheduled for when they will both be in the office. K kept saying over and over just like a mantra "you will be better". I guess I will have to keep his optimism up somehow and try to stop thinking of what can go wrong. I suppose it's time for faith.
