Saturday morning

I woke up and my bum was burning. So I looked. Seemed after the torture of the cauterization the day before - it hadn't even worked!
Just my luck.
I'm not even going to bother to ring the doctor since I'm seeing him on Friday. There is no way I'm letting him cauterize anything again as it was so painful and no success.
I'm pretty much hitting bottom right now.

Just when you thought it was safe...

to get your hopes up, they get smashed. In many ways lately but the one I'm talking about now is my bum wound. At the last appointment with my surgeon, he said the fistulotomy was healing wonderfully. I was happy, it was all good. This morning something didn't feel right, it hurt and I looked. Good thing I did as it sort of looked like a purplish blood blister type of thing. I rang the doctor and he said to come in. I figured I was going to see him next week so I'd just go today instead. Long story short, he doesn't know quite what it is. He did cauterize it though. Turns out the middle part of the wound is healed, and on one end it's taking longer, which we knew. But the other end has opened up. He said it doesn't look infected, which is definitely good, but depending on how it looks next weed (I have to go back on Friday) he may put me on antibiotics.

I realise I sound very defeatist at the moment, but why can't anything in my life just be simple and easy? I'm at my wits end.

An accident waiting to happen -

That's what I am. It's incredible how accident prone I am. Sunday I was out w/ my little nephew, and to make a long story short, he was playing on a "child size" house at a farm, slipped across one of those slat type bridge things, hurt his elbow and was crying. So I ran up the "steps" - more like a plank with notches in it - to pick him up and as I did - WHACK! There went half my head into the v. low "child size" ceiling/roof. People kept asking if I was okay because it was so hard and loud. So now I'm slightly concussed. I took off from work yesterday because it hurt to just go a few feet from the bed to the loo. Still sore when I move, so trying to take it relatively easy, but still - at work you are on the computer. I'm not meant to do too much reading or watch too much telly, but I'm sort of stuck here at the office. I'm frustrated as well as I can't do any real physical activity until this swelling goes down. Nope, didn't go to a doctor. The last time I had a concussion - which was definitely worse than this one - I went to the doctors, they examined me, had me do a CT scan, and nothing showed up. I'm so over seeing doctors this year that I am just sorting myself out. There's really nothing they can do anyway. Hopefully it doesn't take as long as last time to wear off, I believe it was about 6 weeks or so.

As for the hips, they've not been happy. I thought I packed my Mobic from the office to go to the island on Friday, but it wasn't in my bag. I figured I must have left it here in the office by accident, but it's no where to be found. I hope it wasn't nicked. The hips are definitely missing the drugs and the pool. I have more Mobic at home but I can't really do much about the pool, so praying for a v. quick recovery.

weekly update

Last Saturday was lovely, I had a nice long lie in and then did nothing all day except make pancakes! I hadn't had a day like that in ages and it was just what I needed. Sunday I went to the pool and then my parents came in for a bit. The brought in this neck massage thingy I had gotten a few years ago and I've been using it to try to loosen up the knots in my neck. It seems to help a bit, though I'm still tight and also getting the pins and needles down the arm.

I went to Dr. Meng, the rheumatologist on Monday for my three month check-up. She feels I should increase the Mobic and take more Tylenol. I told her that the Mobic is irritating my stomach even with the acid-reflux meds, but she still seems to think I should do it even for a little bit. I'm very weary though. I rang up the insurance company as well to ask what I could do about getting to see the chiro again. They gave me the run around saying that I should have the chiro call to speak to their clinical one and explain the whole situation. I asked his office to do that and haven't heard back so don't know if they did. I will try again on Monday and see where to go from there.

Tuesday I went to the pool and had a good workout. Wednesday night I destroyed my body. I went to see Aimee Mann, who was fab, but it was standing room only and by the end of the night I thought my body was going to break apart into pieces, especially my hips and back. That and very little sleep left me a bit funky yesterday, so I did not go to the pool. I just had no energy so went home and relaxed - just what I needed. My left hip is still pretty miserable right now but at least the right one (touch wood) seems to be okay. And thankfully I've remembered to make the Mobic this week.

Tonight I am going to the island for the weekend. Staying at my brothers tonight and tomorrow my SIL and I will take my favourite boys to the beach, so long as the weather is good. Fingers crossed, it's not looking good at the moment.

August looks pretty laid back which is good. I will start in earnest my gym visits again next week. I just finished the required 50 for the 6 months to get reimbursed from the insurance company, and get to start the next six months on Sunday. I am going to get every cent from them especially since they won't pay for my PT or chiro now.

Happily I found out I have 13 days left to take before the end of the year. 2 are automatically put aside for Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, and so it's really 11. I am looking forward to going to Holland in October or November to stay with my good friend who is having a baby this month. (I am voting for the 26th even though it's a week after her due date! :-) ) After that 6 days left to figure out what to do with. Yay!

Of course I just said the right hip was being good and it's just started a lovely stabbing pain! Argh!

Still haven't heard from Dr. Kelly's office after they left that message to cancel my last appointment. Since I'm so sick of doctors I'm waiting to see how long it takes them to realise they've not seen me for a follow-up in ages. I am definitely doctored out! I so wish I had a somewhat "normal" body! I'm so over this humpty dumpty thing.