EDS

Was reading another blog by an EDS sufferer and thought she described it as basic and easily as possible, so wanted to copy it because it's exactly the same for me. For her complete blog check here.

"Due to the EDS, every collagen cell in my body is faulty and is programmed to be too stretchy and ultimately becomes like an old stretched out rubber band. Normal rubber bands are tight and when you stretch them they bounce right back to their previous shape. EDS sufferers have collagen that is already over-stretched, so when you stretch it out again, it does not bounce back to its original shape, but stays lax and loose. Therefore, we’re super-flexible…but pushing our joints to their limits (as with stretching, yoga, Pilates, heavy-lifting) does long-term irreversible damage.

Practically speaking, this means that my joints are all incredibly unstable and frequently dislocate. Some of my joints bend completely backwards (I can do neat party tricks like bending all of my fingers to touch the back of my hand) while other joints like my wrists and knees bend about 5-10 degrees backwards. The muscles around every single joint also tend to tighten way up, to do the job that my tendons and ligaments aren’t doing: keeping my skeleton in one piece. Dislocations and always-tight muscles = whole body chronic pain...

Think of EDS like extreme rheumatoid arthritis in every single joint, with the addition of random dislocations. And “every single joint” means just that: fingers, wrists, elbows, shoulders, ribs, vertebrae , hips, knees, ankles, toes, etc. People with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome experience acute chronic pain in some or all of their joints and experience neuropathic (nerve) pain in some or all parts of their body, and some even have heart defects that can cause sudden death. Most of us have additional problems with vision, digestion, migraines, pregnancy, and our jaws and teeth. It's an all-encompassing disorder. I have the "Hypermobility Type" of EDS, and my most serious symptoms are in my entire spine, hands, wrists, ribs, knees, and hips. Thankfully, I do not have the "Vascular Type" of EDS, which can cause sudden and early death."

Needles

Saw Dr. Panagos yesterday and he feels it's a shoulder & a neck issue. Of course, why should it only be one? Anyway, we agreed to do a cortisone injection into my shoulder and a trigger point injection into the muscle near my neck. He said one of his patients had a similiarish situation and they did this and it worked. He's quite weary about an epidural for my spine because of the HEDS (Hypermobility Ehlers Danlos Syndrome) as he says that the tissues in the body have easy friability and he doesn't want to make things worse in the long run.

I asked him what we could do if this works to prevent it from happening again. He said that he wants me to strengthen but no flexibility. He suggested Pilates, and I told him my hip surgeon told me not do that, but he said just do the strenghthening bits. When I feel better I will get out my old Pilates disc and see what's there to work with. I also asked him that what if the injection helps my shoulder but not my neck, and he said last resort would be the spine injection if I am still in agony. Fun stuff!

Dr. P also asked if I have been able to find out any biological information on my birth family. He said it would be very good to know what their health situations are. I told him that there is a group in NY fighting for our records to be open, and G-d willing it will pass on the floor this year, so perhaps in a year I will have some information. If you care to help, please get the information here, and help contact the key reps and senators in NY and say you support senate bill S5269. We need our bio/medical info - especially people like me!

Today I rang my chiro to update him and I will be going to see him next Thursday. He wants me to give everything a chance to work in and settle down. I am praying SO hard that this will work. Next Wednesday I have an appointment with my hand surgeon to see about my right hand/wrist. ARGH! It never ends!

Good and bad

Well it's been quite a weekend. Thursday's prep was okay, it definitely could have been worse. I took the two tablets that came w/ the prep at noon, for lunch I had jello and 8oz of broth around 14.00 and around 16.30 started to cramps all over. I figured I should go home then in case they got worse. I started the drink about 17.15 when I got home, just wanted to get it over with. Unfortunately the doctors office said I couldn't take any valium that night to help sleep so I knew it was going to be a rough time. I drank about 8 oz. every 10-15 minutes. I made sure it was cold and I used a straw and put it way back on my tongue so the taste wasn't as bad as it would have been. I also had lemon sucking candies between each glass and that definitely helped. A few times my throat just closed up and I had to spit it out - it had a mind of it's own. I didn't really have to go to the loo for over an hour, and I was pretty much done with it by then. On and off for a little while and then just gassy for the rest of the night. I slept for a little while but was up for good at 3am! My mother was sleeping over and she woke up around 4.30am and we were up for the rest of the am.

We left the house extra early at arrived at the doctors office at 7.50am for an 8.15am appointment. Unfortunately we were told after a few minutes that the doctor had been called into emergency surgery. It happens. I said I really didn't want to have to do the prep again and they assured me they'd get the procedure done that day, and to come back at noon. I was none too happy, between my neck / shoulder agony, starving and lack of sleep. We went all the way back home and miraculously I passed out for a couple of hours. Before we left to go back to the doctors I rang to make sure he was still going to be there, and was told yes, definitely come in. So off we went again. When we arrived at exactly noon, I had a funny feeling. By 12.23 I told my mother that in 7 minutes I was going to go postal. At this point I was beyond hungry and in a lot of pain w/ my neck. Then one of the staff asked me to come to the back with my mother. I knew that wasn't a good sign. He said the doctor was still in surgery and they were expecting him at 14.30, but there was no guarantee. I could 1)wait, 2)wait for another doctor but that wouldn't be till about 15.00 or later, or 3) reschedule. I said 3 wasn't an option as I barely have any days left off and unless they were going to pay me, it wouldn't work. Wasn't keen on a different doctor doing it, but the main thing was it was even a longer wait. I went with my gut and said I would stick it out for Dr. A. Thankfully they also let me take a clonazepam to relax and gave me an ice pack for my neck. For the next two hours my mother and I sat in the back waiting. Thankfully at 14.35 one of the staff came back and said to change. I let out with such a scream! Who would ever have thought I'd be that excited for a colonoscopy. When the doctor came in I gave him a kiss! He was v. sweet and said he wouldn't have not shown up for me. I really do like him, it's so hard to find good doctors and I am v. lucky I have a few v. v. good ones. They knocked me out and all was over within half an hour or so. Dr. A said I had a v. good looking colon and he had taken biopsies but really didn't think they'd say anything. So it's v. good all looks well but we still don't have an answer as to why I keep getting the peri rectal abscesses. Oh well, I've never been easy to diagnose so why start now?!?

After we left the office on the way to get some food, I received a call from Dr. Panagos' (physiatrist) office saying that they would have to reschedule my appointment for the 16th to the 22nd. I nearly lost it and started crying. I said there was no way I could make it another week and a half without some pain relief and please to sort something out. They asked if I was an existing patient and I said yes, and then they said they'd have the doctor ring me. It was already about 15.30 at this point and I didn't think I'd hear from him by the end of the day.

Amazingly he rang me on Saturday am. He even apologised for ringing on a Saturday. I told him he could call me whenever he wanted! He suggested taking Naproxen 500mg twice a day (not doing a damn thing) and taking two valium for sleep (doesn't help, the clonazepam seems to work better but still not a great sleep). I told him my MRI was scheduled for that afternoon and he said that was good and he should have the results by Tuesday. I did email him yesterday to tell him how painful the MRI was, and that the hospital said the images would be online by Tuesday (today) morning at the latest. The last time I had one 8 months ago for my neck, lying down didn't hurt anything like it does now. 20 minutes of lying flat on my back almost killed me. I could barely move my arm and neck after the test and the tech even had to help me up. I was such a wreck for the next day even! They did give me a disc then with the images but I have no idea what that means. Dr. P emailed me back last night and said he'd ring me today after he saw the images but sadly it's 15.50 and I've still not heard from him. I did leave a message with his nurse but haven't heard from her either. I am just hoping he has a solution for pain relief and we can schedule it soon so I have something to look forward to, because I am so wiped out from this pain I just keep wishing Henry VIII was still around so he could chop my head off!

And the best news of all has nothing (sadly) to do with my health but it's still amazing. I am an aunt again! Now I have a beautiful niece, she was born v. v. early on Saturday!

Going on week no. 3

with the neck and shoulder pain. It's not gotten better at all. Last week the physiatrist gave me a taper pack of prednisone. Did absolutely nothing. Nil. Nada. Zippo.
I spent the wkend at my parents trying to not move b/c when I move it hurt more. I tried the shoulder sling but couldn't really tell if it made much of a difference or not.
Monday I rang the physiatrist and made an appt for next Tues, the 16th. It was the first available. Tuesday I was still dying so I rang back and got his nurse - yay a live person. She was very understanding and helpful and said she would talk to him and get back to me. She did in a couple of hours and asked about the pain, if it was the same as back in Dec. I said no it's worse, so she said the dr wants me to have another MRI of my neck. I asked if we should do my shoulder but she said he's pretty sure the pain is originating from the spine, so that's what we'll do. It's scheduled that for this Saturday. In the meantime he gave me Valium to take so I can sleep. I took one last night at 21.00 and ended up waking up at 5 this morning. When I got up to take a shower I was loopy and walking into doors and dizzy and thought I'd fall down in the shower. How can people enjoy this feeling? If it at least got rid of the pain, then I might not mind as much. Anyway I hope the MRI results are quick and that there is something the dr can do on Tuesday to get rid of this major pain because I can't take much more of it, mentally, emotionally or physically. Once we (hopefully) sort the pain out then we have to figure out what to do next. It's one thing having stenosis, but it's another when you have HEDS thrown into the mix. None of the normal options seem available.

Today I have to do the prep for the colonoscopy tmrw. I am pretty nervous since just sitting kills my neck and back and I know I'll spend most of the evening in the loo. Oh well, at least I'll get it over with. I have to say though reading about this HalfLytely stuff does put one off, it sounds so gross. I had to do this once before but it was about 15 yrs ago.

Living with Invisible Illness: 5 Ways to Get Over Aggravations

Looking good when you feel terrible could be seen as a blessing. When you live with chronic illness, however, it can also cause a lot of resentment and misunderstandings.

"You look so good! You can't be as bad as you say. You look perfectly healthy." "You think you have fatigue? Try working full-time plus having four children! Then you'll know what chronic fatigue is." "I think you're spending too much time thinking about how you feel. You need to just get out more." "If you really wanted to get well, you'd at least try that juice drink I gave you last week. It won't hurt to try it."

And the comments go on. . . and on.

And it hurts.

You may be surprised to hear that nearly 1 in 2 Americans has a chronic illness or physical condition that affects their daily life. The range of diseases and included everything from back pain to fibromyalgia, arthritis to cancer, and migraines to diabetes. Oftentimes, one of the largest emotional stumbling blocks for people who suffer from illness is the invisibility of the pain. About 96% of illness is invisible. This means that the person who suffers from the chronic condition show no outward signs of physical pain or disability, nor does he or she use an assistive device like a walker or wheelchair. But the incredible pain each day can be disabling within the confines of the home.

If you have an invisible illness here are 5 ways to forgo some of the frustrations:

[1] Free people from the expectations you typically have had of them. This step will likely be a life-long process, but without taking it, you will consistently find that people will always disappoint you. No one is perfect-even you! And it's important to remember that those with illness do not understand the difficulties that our friends are going through, such as a divorce, the death of a loved one, an ill child, a loss job, etc. Your illness is momentous in your life. And even though people do care, they still will have significant things going on in their own lives. Don't hold that against them.

[2] Find supportive friends. Is there someone in your circle of friendships who is constantly belittling you or suspicious about your illness? Is he is beyond listening and instead spreading gossip about how he saw you at the grocery last week and you looked perfectly fine? This should be a relationship to let go of or, if it's a relative, distance your self as much as possible. Illness can help us easily prioritize our friendships and that way we can spend our limited energies with those that mean the most to us.

[3] Find joy in your blessings. Rather than thinking about how badly you feel, find ways to bring more joy into your life. Appreciate the little things. Observe what you are doing when you have a burst of unexplained energy and realize that there lies your passion. Focus on bringing more of this into your life. You may not be able to garden like you once did, but you can grow a few potted flowers or hire a neighborhood teenager to plant some vegetables and set up an automatic sprinkler system for them. Or if you want to dream big, start a consulting business for want-to-be gardeners.

[4] Use your aptitude and talent for things you have a personal interest in. Too often we feel like the skills we learned in the workplace are no longer valuable. Perhaps you've always wanted to write children's books or be a business consultant. Get involved in your community and do some volunteer or part-time work to continue to grow professionally. Rather than focusing on what others aren't doing to comfort you, follow your dreams and give that gift of comfort to yourself.

[5] Encourage someone else. You personally know how hard it is to live with illness and to feel like no one understands. So take time to be vulnerable with someone else who is going through this. Whether you meet someone through an online group such as National Invisible Chronic Illness Awareness Week's message boards, or through your local support group, volunteer your time and expertise (yes, you're an expert on living with invisible illness!) and use it to make someone else's journey easier and you'll find your own is more enjoyable too. Are you frustrated that no one at your church thinks your invisible illness is real? Rather than stop going to church, find ways to educate them, such as a column in the church newsletter or brochures about National Invisible Chronic Illness Awareness Week. These say what to say/not to say to a chronically ill person.

None of us can change another person or make someone care-but we can educate them and give gentle advice. We must also continue to work on ourselves. You'll find that even when you want to change it can be a real challenge, requiring discipline and motivation for a better life. You owe it to yourself to find joy despite your illness, and by focusing on how you can change your circumstances, instead of change other people, you'll be much more personally rewarded.