Diversion

Was watching Sense & Sensibility on PBS last night and this part of it struck me. Yes I've read the book many times and seen almost every make of it on video, but this bit just hit home. It's amazing how much life can imitate art, or rather art imitate life - the circle is endless...
I highlighted my favourite bit :-)

From S&S by Jane Austen, Ch. 29:

"Bond Street, January. "MY DEAR MADAM,
"I have just had the honour of receiving your letter, for which I beg to return my sincere acknowledgments. I am much concerned to find there was anything in my behaviour last night that did not meet your approbation; and though I am quite at a loss to discover in what point I could be so unfortunate as to offend you, I entreat your forgiveness of what I can assure you to have been perfectly unintentional. I shall never reflect on my former acquaintance with your family in Devonshire without the most grateful pleasure, and flatter myself it will not be broken by any mistake or misapprehension of my actions. My esteem for your whole family is very sincere; but if I have been so unfortunate as to give rise to a belief of more than I felt, or meant to express, I shall reproach myself for not having been more guarded in my professions of that esteem. That I should ever have meant more you will allow to be impossible, when you understand that my affections have been long engaged elsewhere, and it will not be many weeks, I believe, before this engagement is fulfilled. It is with great regret that I obey your commands in returning the letters with which I have been honoured from you, and the lock of hair, which you so obligingly bestowed on me.
"I am, dear Madam, "Your most obedient "humble servant, "JOHN WILLOUGHBY."

With what indignation such a letter as this must be read by Miss Dashwood, may be imagined. Though aware, before she began it, that it must bring a confession of his inconstancy, and confirm their separation for ever, she was not aware that such language could be suffered to announce it; nor could she have supposed Willoughby capable of departing so far from the appearance of every honourable and delicate feeling--so far from the common decorum of a gentleman, as to send a letter so impudently cruel: a letter which, instead of bringing with his desire of a release any professions of regret, acknowledged no breach of faith, denied all peculiar affection whatever-- a letter of which every line was an insult, and which proclaimed its writer to be deep in hardened villainy.

She paused over it for some time with indignant astonishment; then read it again and again; but every perusal only served to increase her abhorrence of the man, and so bitter were her feelings against him, that she dared not trust herself to speak, lest she might wound Marianne still deeper by treating their disengagement, not as a loss to her of any possible good but as an escape from the worst and most irremediable of all evils, a connection, for life, with an unprincipled man, as a deliverance the most real, a blessing the most important."

Oops

Forgot the drugs today - but I feel better regardless!!!

I am still so not believing drugs are the end all!

Really wishing I had the Doctors TARDIS so I could escape.

update

Rang the rheumatologist Dr. Meng yesterday and she thinks that the Mobic is not causing more pain, and I should DOUBLE the dosage. I am a bit weary about this but will try it. Also to take 1000mg of Tylenol every day. I am turning into a druggie. She was helpful with the insurance appeal and wrote a good letter to them, which I forwarded to my S at the PT office to include. I also forwarded the letter to Dr. Kelly's office for them to keep on file in case the insurance co contacts them, and also to show them what they could have written. I also asked him where the insurance co got the idea my strength was 4/5. Haven't heard back yet.

That's it for now because I feel like my body has been run over by 10 mack trucks and I can barely move. If only I could stay home today. Or move to a warm, dry climate. That is getting more and more appealing by the second.

Topsy-Turvy

I'm not sure what is going on but my body is screaming at me and usually that's when the weather goes all icky. But the weather isn't meant to go all icky till Friday. I am wondering if it is this new medication I'm taking? I have been feeling achy since I woke up today.